Stick a fork in me...I'm done

Wowza what a day!

Was freakin' tired this am. Got very little sleep. Got up at 5:45am, went to my course, it was informative, but the first session had me running for the coffee that I rarely drink, just to stay awake. Yikes.

Then I got a text from my mom, saying she was sorry to tell me this but my Grandfather went into congestive heart failure this morning and they weren't sure he was going to last the day. And a voicemail from my friend at head office, saying I'd better get my butt to the GM's office today and ask for that transfer. I called the GM, asked for a meeting after my courses, called my mom, papa was ok for now. Went back to the course.

Got through the course, went to my meeting - got approved for the transfer! Final details on Monday.

Headed for mom's house, another 2 hours away - in the wrong direction from my house and got the call on the way...papa passed away.

I'm wiped. Sad. Tired.

The news on the transfer is more in-depth, but today it just doesn't seem right to celebrate, so I'm going to go have a glass of wine with my mom and sister and details will follow probably tomorow.

To do list...

To do list:

Talk to R about moving in – check
Talk to my boss about transfer – check
Talk to the GM about transfer – tomorrow!
Talk to R’s landlords about me and Chiquita moving in –
Check commute distance to work from R’s house – check – it’s super close! Yay!
Start packing – check
Sweet talk shipper/receiver at work to save me boxes – check
Send in mortgage transfer application – started
Get approved for transfer –
Tell C –
Move –
Start new job –

Ok the unchecked list is longer, but the checked off list is getting longer by the day! I’m having a great day. I’m off in less than an hour and even though I’m going to get to R’s house after he’s gone to work for the night and he’ll get home at 2am and I have to get up at 5:45am for work, I’m still super excited to see him. Lol. I think I’ll be tired tomorrow. Stupid course.

I get to sit in on seminars like ‘product and issues update’, ‘warranty systems update’ and ‘audit update’. EXCITING! Haha, just kidding. Hopefully it won’t be info I’ll need if I get the transfer.

Changes

Huge life changes are taking place. Again.

I'm putting in for a transfer, which would (if I got it) move me to a new city, a new position (within same company), new home and new person to live with.

I'm excited, scared, nervous!

Keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck. Details to come when things are for sure!

Lending Money

I’ve never really been one that likes to lend money. To friends or family.

A friend once told me she never lends money that she can’t afford to just give and not expect back. I really just try to not lend it out in any form. I hate asking for it back. I don’t like to lend someone money because generally right after you do they avoid you. And if they owe you money and you see them buying something, of course most people are like, hu? How can you buy [insert unnecessary object here], but you can’t pay me back?

I’m on an Oprah kick right now. I’ve been watching the 20th anniversary DVD collection lately. She said she doesn’t lend money. Ever. She just gives it away if she feels they need it. Since I can’t really adopt that mantra, I just try to avoid lending.

Which leads me to a situation I’ve landed in, although I really tried not too. Ugh. I purchased a few things for my mom that she asked me too. No big deal. I don’t mind and mom is great about paying me or trading for stuff. She owes me some money, which turned out to be the same amount my sister owes her. Since we are all going to be together this weekend for Thanksgiving, she said my sister could just pay me what she owes my mom and it would work out. Which it would. If my sister had the money to pay me. But now she doesn’t.
Her husband had a botched vasectomy that ended with him with an infection and off work for the last month. He is on short-term disability. I understand that money is tight for them. But I put things on my MasterCard for my mom, based that I would get paid this weekend. Now, my mom is out the money my sister owes her and I don’t feel right asking her to give me the money she owes me. She’s my mom! And she’d be out the amount double. So, what do I do? I don’t want to push my sister for the money or my mom for that matter. Financially I’m probably better off than they both are. However, why is it my responsibility to fund their issues? I don’t know what to do.

Today is going to be great!

Today I'm going to have a good day. A positive outlook on this day.

Generally I'm a positive person. I'm very type A. I'm an optimist.

I repeat, today is going to be a good day!

I'm just wrapping up some left over things at work. I don't have a ton of work to do before I go on vacation, but I like to clean things up so I don't come back to a mess. Although, when I'm away people seem to like to stack files on my desk.

Today I'm grateful for:

1. A quiet evening last night with no arguments.
2. A good nights sleep, I think I only woke up once or twice last night!
3. The sun is out! 2 days in a row, the sun is out and it's (kind of) warm....I love fall, the leaves, the smells, the warm colors, usually the great weather (except for the insane amount of rain we've had...my yard is actually growing mushrooms it's so wet!)

Lying

Why do people keep lying when you both know they are lying? Some stuff I get. I understand secrecy. I understand lying for a cause, although I prefer not too. What I don’t get is lying for no reason and then even once you’ve been proved to be lying, to keep the lie going. And argue and argue and argue over it. Why not just admit defeat?

C showed up last night. He was supposed to be working. He called me at 6:30pm last night and told me he was headed to a job. I knew he was on his way home. I could tell by what he said and how evasive he was. He wouldn’t tell me, answer his phone or texts after that. He text me at 8pm. Then showed up at the house at 10pm. He swore he slept the full 3 hour drive home and didn’t wake up until it was too late to let me know he was coming home. I asked how he could be sleeping the whole drive and not tell me he was coming home, but then could text me at 8pm, at which point he was almost half way back. He swears he didn’t know at 8 that he was coming home because he wasn’t driving. Look buddy, we both know you are lying, so why keep going with it? So that turned into a huge argument. Then he was mad that I had started packing. I’m tired today.

It’s harder today to find gratitude:

1. I’m thankful for my dog, who makes me smile every morning when she is always so excited to see me.

2. I’m thankful for my sister, and our relationship.

3. I’m thankful for my Step-mother, who I don’t always see eye to eye with on many things, but will someday be the person I go to for advice when it comes to step-children. We had a good chat on the phone this morning.

4. I’m thankful that I have my own office and on days like today, I can just close the door and work in peace.

5. I’m thankful that there are only 4 more work days until I’m on vacation for 9 days :)

A little of this...

I really wanted this week to be a good one. I have this week and then I’m off all of next week. I’m going to see R, my mom, my sister and her kids and R again. Plus a good friend while I’m in BC. I’m super excited about that.

I have a ton of things to do this week to get ready to leave. I’m getting my nails done Wednesday after work (ya, ya I know, gel nails, but seriously, in the hour it takes every 3 weeks I swear it takes less time and they look great! It’s my only girly indulgence, give me a break lol). Thursday I have to get my SUV serviced and checked out. Plus laundry, packing and organizing. I have a ton of stuff to bring with me.

I’ve been at work for an hour and a half and I already have a complaint. Why do the stupid service writers not answer there telephone pages??? So, I’m forced to answer and then when I do and put the guy on hold to ask the foreman if we can do the job (so not my job to be doing this) then she runs in as the hero and takes the call, books it and ignores me while I’m telling her I already spoke to that person. I mean, come on! Grrrr…so annoying.

Why does C find it absolutely necessary to call me incessantly during the day? I’m at work! Hello!!! And then leaves me voicemails saying he needs to speak to me right away about his dying uncle and then when I call him back, he ignores my calls? Arg.

Ok, *sigh* today I’m grateful for:

1. A friend of mine, whose going through a rough time, and even though I’m a bit upset with her, she finally had a good weekend and met a guy that made her feel like the beautiful person she is.

2. R finally got a long distance calling plan yesterday. After 6 months of me calling, it’s really nice for him to call me instead. Silly, but still makes me smile.

3. 5 more days until vacation!!!!!

4. I packed boxes yesterday. In one way it was hard to start putting my stuff away and splitting our lives apart, but in another it was the best form of therapy. It felt like a step in the right direction.

5. I found some ginger citrus hand cream from last year. I’m in love with this stuff and I swear if I could I’d walk around all day smelling my hands…mmmm….heaven!

Grateful

I was watching Oprah’s season 20 DVD’s last night. And the subject of a gratitude journal came up. I’m in a place where I really want to b*tch about the people in my office, but instead I’m going to list 5 things I’m grateful for today:

1. Payday yesterday and finally after over a year of struggling there have been a few pay cheques in succession that there is more money than bills instead of the other way around.
2. My holiday is coming up…5 more work days and then 9 days of holiday bliss!
3. Extra days off during Christmas – with pay! The GM came here today and told us we were going to close the offices on Dec. 24th & 27th. Yay!
4. A sunny day outside. No rain!
5. A good morning phone call from someone special, that made me happy and kept a smile on my face all day :)