confused

I need advice. I'm not sure how to proceed, or what to say or how to say it.

I'm not sure I really want to put into words the confusion that is around my head. It might make it worse that way.

It's like the old saying, if a tree falls in the middle of the forest and no one is around, does it still make a sound?

So, if I feel the way I feel and I have the thoughts that I have, if I keep them to myself, are they still bad?

I'll come back to it... I need more time to decide if I really want to go there. ugh.